Tuesday, November 30, 2010

talk / signs

I got my pride, I will not cry but it's making me weak. I'm not your SUPERWOMAN. I'm not that kind of girl that you can let down and think that everything is okay. Boy I am only human

-karyn white

talk / signs

"...got to believe in magic,
tell me how 2 people find each other in the world that full of strangers
- david pomeranz

Friday, November 26, 2010

make sense?

chronic insomnia??? T__T.. for the first time at this long...

I'm suffering Sleeping Disorder for less than a month now. I don't know but my mind is so active in evening, lot of random thoughts sinking in and I can't hardly control it. I was just lie on bed and wide-awake and I'm not totally sleepy knowing I was too active in day light coz of my work-outs. This is my first time having a long period in difficulty in sleeping and I ended up as Anemic the last time I checked my hemoglobin last week. I was not anemic before and because of that I'm starting to get worried about this. Apparently, I am not just sleeping late or whatsoever. I am totally awake until morning and not feeling tired or heavy-head. I just feel that my body is so stress. I don't know why this is happening and I don't know what to do to cure this. I don't wanna go to physicians and prescribed again some medicine and I'm pretty sure they'll give me Sleeping Pills which I'm afraid of.

At first, I just thought it was just because of the coffee that I drank that's why I can't sleep well but then days goes by it became worst than ever.

My effin' God, what should I do?? T__T.. I can't be like this for another week(s). My friends and family helping me advice what to do. I already transfer to my sister's room coz she's not here but it's still the same. My bed always looks like visited by tornado coz I keep on rolling and rolling and rolling.

I need a mind controller coz I know the cause of this...and that is my crowded mind =(

And as you can see, I'm posting this early in the morning right? I don't have sleep yet but still my mind really work as fire. =(

Sleeping Disorder and Depression:

It has been stated at many places that depression can cause insomnia.
However, in my clinical experience, the vice-versa is also valid:
Long-standing insomnia or sleeplessness can often cause depression.

Sleep disturbances and depression are anything but strange bed fellows. Nearly all depressed individuals experience sleep problems. Indeed, early-morning awakening is a hallmark of the mood disorder. - depression-guide.com

Thursday, November 25, 2010

True to life story

Do you remember what it feels like to be a young girl? When our parents would read to us those precious books we call fairytales, before we went to bed every night? We would laugh and smile, and we couldn't wait to grow up because we innocently thought that we would all get to become beautiful princesses. We couldn't wait to find our white horse princes who would save us from the monsters we were afraid of. We wanted to go to those dreamy balls and dance the night away. We wanted to live happily ever after. And now that we're grown up, we've realised that not everyone is as beautiful as a princess. Sure, we're all beautiful in our own ways, but it's sad that not everyone can see that. Now that we're grown up, we've realised that our "white horse prince" could be a geek in tin foil, or a jerk we don't end well with. Usually, boys cause more problems for us than actually helping us through them. Now that we're grown up, we've realised that the monsters are not hiding under our beds on in our cupboards; they're in our heads, and no one can save us from them. Now that we're grown up, we've realised that those dreamy balls could be parties where people get drunk and do all sorts of crazy reckless things. Now that we're grown up, we've realised that we get hurt. And most of the time, no one actually cared. Heartbreaking, isn't it, how the beautiful pure innocence of a child gets shattered so easily as they grow up. It's such a fragile thing. Something that is always destroyed over time. Something no one can protect and preserve. I think that's the saddest thing in the world and the saddest thing for being a girl.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

talk / signs


Wednesday, November 17, 2010

The Prince is getting Married! Love is in the Air ♥ ♥ ♥

Prince William is now engaged to Kate Middleton!!!
haha... Wish them happiness!! Hope they will be forever ^___^ ... Now I wonder how does it feel to be a Princess and wife of a Prince?? hmmmm.... Well Prince Harry is still single hahahahaha.... hmmmmm hahaha...

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Filipino's Pride


Facebook and Twitter are now FLOODING
about Pacquaio... rofl

I feel so sad on Margarito's face huhu.. OUCH!! huhu =(

Click here to view Pictures from the game

Pacquiao vs Margarito. Who would it be??? I bet for manny as usual hehe and I know he wins, no doubt at it...

The Philippine World will now STOP for a while for Manny Pacquiao's game. It is always his game who could only stop everything in here. All sunday workers are now on holiday. People watch here as one or in any places that have thousands of people with big screen to witness it. I prefer to watch at home hehehe.


Thursday, November 11, 2010

Oprah with Katherine Jackson and Michael Jackson's kids: Prince, Paris and Blanket and also Lisa Marie Presley Interview about Michael

For the first time they speak up on TV just in OPRAH!

I just watched these and it breaks my heart. Especially the part where Katherine cried while she was talking about Michael and the kids where Paris says "I don't wanna live without you dad, I wanna go with you..." It really tears me up swear to God!!! I really do have low tolerance when it comes to crying, when someone is crying and the story is so sad - tears really easily fall down on my face, you know.... it's hard to explain coz I know you can hardly understand what I truly feel or say, but this is what I really am. I'm kinda emotional when it comes to feelings, I mean sad feelings. I easily get affected especially to good people, but if you are bad person and you cried I would be happy that you are sad haha.. My bad, but yeah, I have soft heart to nice, kind and good people who went through alot in their lives.

Here it is:

Katherine Jackson Opens Up to Oprah Winfrey 11/08/10
: Part 1/3

Oprah "...time heals all wounds is that been true to you...?
Katherine: "No, not at all. I don't think it will. I don't think I would ever be healed... Whenever I can talk about Michael I just tear up... "

That's heartbreaking. I know it's not easy....T__T

PART 2/3

I just felt so bad to his father Joe, he can't admit that he used to beat hard Michael tho Katherine already told him that he did. And the worst is he didn't regret of beating his children. That's sooo (i dont know what's the exact word) like some kinda ridiculous, some kinda bad, you get what I mean???? No wonder why Michael hate him.

PART 3/3

I like the kids, I found them very down to earth like their father. They are so strong.

Lisa Marie Presley with Oprah on Michael Jackson 10/21/10
Part 1



Lisa Marie seems nice person, maybe she was just like a bit confused, pressured that time coz she was young and went through a lot coz of his father, previous husband. But you know, REGRET always place in the last portion/part.

It's been a year but still people feel so sad about MJ's lost and I'm one of them.

Life - Des'ree ------- OH LIFE!!!! *sigh*


I'm afraid of the dark,
'specially when I'm in a park
And there's no-one else around,

Ooh, I get the shivers
I don't want to see a ghost,
It's a sight that I fear most
I'd rather have a piece of toast
And watch the evening news

Life, oh life, oh life, oh life,
doo, doot doot dooo.
Life, oh life, oh life, oh life,
doo, doot dooo

I'm a superstitious girl,
I'm the worst in the world

Never walk under ladders,
I keep a rabbit's tail

I'll take you up on a dare,
Anytime, anywhere
Name the place, I'll be there,
Bungee jumping, I don't care!

(Repeat Chorus)

So after all is said and done
I know I'm not the only one
Life indeed can be fun, if you really want to

Sometimes living out your dreams,
Ain't as easy as it seems
You wanna fly around the world,
In a beautiful balloon!!!!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Monday, November 8, 2010

Big WOW @__@ to INCEPTION!!!!!

GOD!! INCEPTION GIVES ME BRAIN MALFUNCTION!!! especially ending haha... I love that kind of movie, you have to analyze such things. Full of twist! Mind controller/creator. It challenged my brain and mind! I LOVE IT!!! What a brilliant movie!!! I watched all Leonardo movie and it was all nice, whenever he's the main character it's always been an awesome one!!! Oh boy, would you believe I keep on shouting all the time and open mouth while watching? hahaha... My mom laughed at me saying "what kind of movie did you watch that makes you like funny statue??!" haha...

I just watched it just this moment on DVD. How I wish I watched it on 3D theater. Well, never had a chance coz of some things happened. So, if I was amazed on tv how much more in 3D??? T___T

My sister was so funny! After we watched she said: "what's my name??" haha, crazy one...

Sunday, November 7, 2010

the only horror movie that gives me goosebumps

You know what! The first, one and only Horror Movie that really made me shout as hell as I can, shakes everything inside of me, fur raises as straight as it was, was only "PARANORMAL ACTIVITY!!!".

Damn that movie! Oh boy! It was last February in our house in Singapore with FULL VOLUME and LIGHTS OFF!! Imagine that!! While were having bday party, one of our friends suggested to watch the DVD. At first I was like "It's boring!" (nobody told me it was horror-well I never heard it before so it was unknown for me). But when the middle portion came, I can't get rid my eyes on the TV! I was holding with my friend mitch. We were, I think more than 15 in our house. I was sitting on the floor coz obviously there was no space for me at all lol. I kept on shouting, even our guy friends became gays hahaha... It was very hilarious! SCARY TO DEATH! When the party was over, only me and mitch sleep in our room. I can't freakin sleep. The lights was on! And I can't sleep with lights open. I was very very sleepy but then it awakes me everytime I fell asleep. I tried to off the lights but the portion of "pulling foot" in paranormal keeps on rewinding in my head. I was paranoid maybe someone would pull me out. It was morning already when I totally asleep, I woke up late in the evening.

And now again PARANORMAL ACTIVITY 2???!!. I should watch it in morning!! I was traumatize hahaha....WISH ME LUCK!!

If you hate, do not hate the person as a whole, rather only the things they said or do that hurt you. This way, it will leave a bigger room for forgiveness and another chance.


I'm trying to forget things. But the more I tried, the more they sink in.


Do not judge other people, for you do not know their pain and sorrows, if you cannot speak a kind word, just shut the hell up!


Saturday, November 6, 2010

WOW!! Whatta House: 'the klein bottle house' by rob mcbride

the klein bottle house is located in rye, australia and designed by rob mcbride. the unusual home design was inspired by its namesake: the klein bottle. this 19th century invention is used to describe a form which has no distinguishable inside or outside. the architects also wanted to move away from the paradigm of designing buildings based on orthogonal methods and instead embrace the complexity inherent with computer aided design (cad). while the design embraced mathematics and digital design it also references the vernacular australian cement sheet beach house. the house recently won the harold desbrowe-annear award in architecture. it is made from concrete sheets and black metal, which are both folded and twisted to create the multitude of angles.


via designboom.com

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

talk / signs

London-Singapore same structure

When I was in Singapore I was amazed of this big-huge Ferris Wheel in Marina Bay. I think it took 1 hour to rotate that big circle. They call it "THE EYE".

So, I searched about London coz like I said I am too much inlove with London (coz of london bridge kid song hehe). And I saw they have the same "EYE". Here it is:

I was like "which one built first?". I just thought maybe Singapore like London or just copy it like Macau-Las Vegas. But then it says in the history something about "British Colony in Singapore", so maybe those british there built that EYE in Singapore.

and here look:

hmmmm... What you think?

So how about the Big Clock? ^___^

personal life

(April 6, 1920 - March 16, 2005)
We have the same Zodiac Sign: Aries. Now I know why we have something in common in attitude.

We went to Grandpa’s (mom side) tomb last night. While we were praying, I talked to him in silence in my mind everything that happened in my life. Asked him to tell God some secret favor of me coz he’s closer to Him. We have soft heart when it comes to my grandpa coz he lived with us till the last day of his life. We were the one who took care of him when he was so sick and He sometimes appear in my dream.

He used to call me "babaeng kuratat" everytime he wakes me up, it means naughty girl in sweet and funny voice hehe.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Nurse Robot act like Human

WOW... Robot!! Humanity is DOOMED!!!
She look so real!! I wanna have a robot friend, sounds so cool hihihi
BRAVO JAPAN!!!! You guys are awesome when it comes to technology stuff.

This is a robot created by Kokoro Co. Ltd. and ATR. It is called the Actroid-F. It can do human like movements with almost human like movement. This includes face movements, gestures, speaking, and other movements. It is truly a robot ahead of its time. - youtube description

I have something to tell you - I was a Robocop fanatic when I was a kid. hihi... ssshhh lol

let's talk about love

It's hard to LOVE the person you DON'T LOVE but it's harder NOT TO LOVE the person you DO LOVE. -mimot


If you love someone, tell them. Because hearts are often broken by words that are left unspoken.- [selfish sacrifice and selfless sacrifice~ sacrifice for nothing instead lose someone precious to you...]- Lily Luna Potter


via bojoy's tumblr

Monday, November 1, 2010

See You Soon - Coldplay

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