Evanescence in Manila~!!!

SHOOOOOOTTTTT~!!!!

I wanna be there. I don wanna miss it. My name Amy Lee(n) haha...I want ticket NOW~!!!!!! front seat~!!!!

GOTCHA~!!!!!!!!!!! bwahahaha..... got the PATRON SEATED... ill just stand up if i want to weeeee

looks real @.@

Goldfish Salvation by: Riusuke Fukahori

CHEATERS~!!!!!!!!

Best of CHEATERS EPISODES

THOU SHALL NOT TRUST GUYS!!

GINGER THE GENIUS DOG!! hihi

Does anyone of you knows about GINGER??? Well she is my ever fave dog in youtube. Me and my sister used to laugh coz of her crazy boss, he was the founder of this funny stuff and people just copying it you know .. If you dont know her, just watch these videos:

The 1st video we watched w/ my sis
and I cant resist the SUBSCRIBED button :)

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GINGER THE GOLDEN RETRIEVER BY sawith65

NYE's RED ♥ ♥ ♥

Ok after lonesome let's proceed to awesome. After months of mourning, new years eve changed it as if nothing happened. January 1, 2012 the day i will never forget in my life.

Me and my "honey", went to the rooftop of Double Tree by Hilton in Ras Al Khaimah, United Arab Emirates. I'm NOT supposed to be there coz the truth "I'M NOT INVITED". He invited someone which made my heart crumpled into pieces. What can i do???

Forget about the cause and effect of the story. As of my ex-front office asst manager "i will not go into details" But God knows I was diluted about it.

So there, we had a party, he made Long island iced tea for me which is my fave and ill tell you it was really nice and the nicest from all i've tried. He will be a good bartender hihi. Too bad i dont have the picture and the video on it. Maybe ill get it from him after.

So we watched the little fireworks from Hilton Resort and enjoyed the night and I was happy then. Atleast it removed one piece of thorns in me.

And 3days on-the-go was all nice. Thank God my new year started in nice way. After this i dont know. I know issues will come and go, im just trying to make myself "it's fine" to avoid craziness.

But whatever it is, Thanks honey. Thanks coz you made me happy through all the shits. Thanks enta habibi enta hayati, Basem, my smile. Thanks also new year's eve you came and you made me smile.

missing my diaries is never easy :(

Now i wonder where my diary is. After the horrible accident in Macau unfortunately i left it there in my luggage and they throw it all away. I always carry it with me wherever i go. I have 4 thick diaries from grade school-to-high school-to-college-to-working days-and POEMS :(. Count the years it will never be replace. Sigh, I treasure it more than my life but now its all gone and i cant share it anymore to my child. Pity i am expressing through writings, pity i am i lost my hidden thoughts. and pity i am nobody can bring it back to me. Wherever in this world my notes are, hope someone is reading it and one day it will be in my hands, gladly in my own hands and ill be happy. Stupid of me i didnt put my address or phone # there . Maybe, just maybe someone will give it back. And if it just with my friends there hope they let me know so that this madness i have everytime i remember it will be vanished. Forever.

SITUATION --Part 2.. for her, from him.

DROWN ME (amor)

I could be worst when there are words I can’t say.
I’m awakened by the miserable past that you keep on display.
I’ve been cut through deep, deep down the shadows,
the shadows on where I don’t wanna belong.
I wanna leave her ‘coz I don’t wanna make her feel suppressed, depressed, unwanted, I ain’t worth it.

Drown me, never wanna swim.
Drown me, stop this scheme, she deserves better.
Give me some relief, the one that could vanish me,
the one that has the power to stop me from coming back.

I can’t take this anymore, can’t hurt her no more.
She deserves something better than feeling me…
than suffering from me, than loving doubtfully ‘coz of me,
than living in hell w/ me.
It’s love that she deserves to feel from you…